Sunday, 15 July 2012

No reason to stay is a good reason to go

♫ Hammerfall – Glory to the brave

I hope my post title doesn't sound suicidal as it's not supposed to, it was just a good quote I found when Google suggested I look for "quotes about moving on". I thought I would be all hyped about realizing my dreams when I would get back to updating my blog, but well, life's a roller coaster. I realized one dream – visited Germany and Berlin for the first time. On the day I returned my boss called me (although I am on vacation, yes) to tell he would have to lay me off "for the time being due to economic reasons". Well, we all knew what the situation was, but I certainly did not expect this – I had (my favourite recurring) a project coming up very soon after the end of my vacation, but then... Things didn't go quite as expected.

I refuse to think there was something else behind it but the fact I was probably an expensive employee (though still remarkably underpaid). I know my place and the level of my talent and know it's not overshadowed by my workmates'. And although I was not fired and I figured they want to get me back as soon as they get more clients and more money, I'm not going to sit still and wait for that day. I think they think I'm doing just that – but no, although I liked the atmosphere and had some nice projects as well, I had been thinking of looking for a job where I could get a reasonable salary and some new challenges. I have no reason to do much in July since most companies in this field are on vacation, but I will soon start to look for a new job... It's probably about the time I listen to all the people who have told me to do that even while I still was working without a threat of unemployment or a temporary lay-off.

I will soon flood you with Berlin posts, but not yet. I took over one thousand photos during the five-day trip. I spent over twelve hours a day mostly on my feet more than once, and still didn't see everything.

Yesterday I went out with a friend couple to celebrate the lady's birthday, looking like that. Didn't bother to take an outfit photo as my SLR camera was somewhere with a memory card full of Berlin. I opted for double-buns after a long time again. :> I think I heard something about "fucking Mickey Mouse" once, but I was also complimented by another person who told me I'm stunning (why, thank you!) and since I was asked, I told I'm a graphic designer, and this person thought it made sense I have such a sense of style. Though I'm glad the conversation died quickly, I feel a bit sensitive talking about work-related things at the moment. :| Almost felt I couldn't say I am a graphic designer.

So yeah. I suppose I'll get back to posting about Berlin soon enough. Somewhere between fighting bureaucracy and trying to rediscover my self-confidence and find a new beginning with a new job. With such hopes, so long.


  1. I absolutely agree with your point. Unfortunately, you can't afford to sit at home and wait if they call or not, even if you like this's so sad, but I'm sure you'll find something better soon! ^^

    You looked adorable, by the way, I love double buns! ^^

    1. I really hope so. Though if bureaucracy isn't against me too much, I should be able to get some earnings-related allowance, and with that I "could" wait a bit longer, but I don't even want to. I already have two positions in sight that I'm going to apply to.
      And thank you very much! :>

  2. Sorry to hear about your job situation but it sounds like it may be a blessing in disguise!
    I'm looking forward to your Germany posts. I've been to southern Germany three times but have never made it up to Berlin. :( Hubby and I have vowed that next time we're over there, that's where we are going.
    Love your hair up in "buns" like that. Too cute!

    1. Yeah, I really try to believe that things will turn out well eventually, and I'll probably get a better job.
      Berlin is certainly worth visiting! I really want to get back there one day. I'll try to include traveling tips in my future posts too.
      And thank you! :>


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